|signs from G-d
||[Apr. 7th, 2003|04:18 pm]
you all can think i am weird. i really could care less. cos i had an epiphany, or a sign from G-d, or whatever you want to call it.|
there's a name that has been the front-runner for this baby boy of mine. i haven't mentioned it much to many people. but i always wonder - is it too unusual, or too weird? will he be stigmatized? will he loathe his father and me for giving him this name?
anyway, today, i was at El Gigante (Giant), the supermarket. i seem to spend plenty of time there. anyhow, i hadn't actually been there in weeks, so i had a pretty huge cartload of stuff... and heavy stuff, to boot. the constant picking up and putting down and stooping led me to have some massive contractions. in short, i was not a happy person. the cart was incredibly full and heavy; and as i walked out into the rainy parking lot, all i could do was sigh and think about how wonderful it was going to be to lift all of that stuff into, and then out of, my trunk. i wasn't even looking for help, i was so downhearted.
a young man who works at Giant walked over to me. he is one of those guys who collects carts from the parking lot and helps people load purchases into their cars. i am not sure whether he has any other challenges, but he has an intense stutter. he gave me a smile and said, "mmmmm mmmm mmmm mmmmm mmmm'am?"
i looked up. "yes?"
"mmm mmm mm mmm mm mm.."
i fought the urge to finish his sentence. i thought that would be rude and demeaning. so i stood there for a few seconds in the rain.
he continued. "mmay i help you?"
"i would be delighted if you could," i responded.
and he took my cart, pushed it to my car, and loaded my trunk. he wouldn't let me bend to the bottom of the cart to get the heavy stuff, either. "no, maam, please lllet me do it."
i know it sounds like nothing, but i really, really appreciated the help. it came at a perfect time, like someone upstairs knew i really, truly needed assistance. i looked at the man's badge to thank him.
his badge read: julian.
julian is the name we have been seriously contemplating as the name for our boy for months.
i think Someone is trying to tell me something :-)